Today, however, I finally had a sense of peace...of actually taking it to the next level...of accomplishing something and knowing that it was all God working through me and no one else, getting me to this place.
I was at practice at the church as usual on a Tuesday and for one of the songs we were having a hard time figuring out the right chords...Jon wanted to capo it but that meant that I had to adjust the chords on the chart to match the capo, something that I understand but have never had to actually do before.
It was taking forever so we just resolved to leave it in the original key and that I would lead it instead of him. You all know I have like, no confidence in myself yet when it comes to singing and playing simultaneously..I do it every week when we practice, but not really without relying on the guitar to fill in the notes on the keys that I miss, and, believe me, I miss a lot of them.. hehehe (if I am getting better at one thing, though, it's covering up my mistakes!!)
But we started playing this particular song, and, amazingly, it seemed to just come so naturally. Yes, I messed up some and I didn't hit every note correctly, but it just felt so good. I actually felt like all my practice, my effort, and my time spent had been paying off, and to see something, even the smallest of things, manifest itself in your life when everything else seems almost hopeless is such an encouragement, and it's instilled in me a glimmer of hope that my persistence in all things will pay off.
Incidentally, had my amazing, awesome,gorgeous, life-saving neighbor (yes, Hailey that would be you..lol) not texted me and offered to watch my kids at the LAST MINUTE, without even knowing I needed help, I probably would not have been able to even get there today...
Coincidence? I think not.
*~Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.~*
2 comments:
You made me cry!! You are the best. It is funny how I totally had a feeling at the car wash that I should call you and offer my help. I am soo glad that I listened to that and was able to help. lol!!
awesome Jenn... I can't wait another minute to hear you play. I've always believed in you....and when everthing is crashing around you, God is smiling just waiting to give you a phenomenal ending.
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