BURN

My most recent endeavor: Working out. and working out HARD. I ain't talkin half-assed, sissy, twirling around for 20 minutes just so I can say I worked out. I'm talkin down and dirty, sweat-drenching, muscle-building, calorie-incinerating workouts. And I've been sticking with it for at least 2 months now.

I have always worked out, but it was sporadic, and even when I did commit to 5 days a week, I would end up having something more important that I needed to do, like help out in my daughter's kindergarden class, and I would convince myself it was okay to just skip it because in the scheme of things that truly was more important. But I've always known and strongly believed in the importance of staying fit, too, and I believe that if you want something you MUST work for it. You can't just sit around and whine about how everything sucks. TAKE ACTION! If not, you then become a victim, and it's difficult for me to tolerate that mindset, though I can't deny that I, too, am guilty of indulging in it every now and then. If something needs to change, then change it, or at least try to change it! Just DO something. Don't complain! DO!

Anyway, sorry....losing focus, losing focus.. (ADD sucks). hehehe.

Back to working out. I think I may have some kind of disorder, because I'll be working out hard and almost crying and hating every second of it...but then when it's over, I like HAVE to do more! It must be the burn that motivates me...because that's the feeling of accomplishment! It's different than pain to me..pain would be the damn migraines and neck issues I continue to have from that damn car accident last March. But this is like satisfaction and achievement and feeling strong all at the same time. And now, after the last couple months of REALLY working out and really giving it my best effort, I'm sleeping better, I have more energy, and I'm in a better mood in general. LOVE it.

And now I'm going to go to bed so I can wake up in the morning and get my hardcore Pilates on.

:)